i am so moved with love at the moment i can hardly contain how sweet, precious, and beautiful it feels.
i woke this morning and prayed like i usually do. only this time i asked for a sign. anything. like, i literally told my creator; “whatever it is hinuuywat, just show me.”
i did my morning meditation per usual as my practice is intentional with love as my guide.
i released pain and welcomed love from a releasing heart space and let love flow.
the kind of love that is gracious, and the kind of beautiful feeling that is not something to be possessed, but truly felt. so much that it resonated with me today as i released insecurities, fears, abandonment, hurt, heartaches, and mistrust.
i can’t even begin to explain. all i can share is, it was a peaceful, beautiful, lovely, and gorgeous feeling to have my breath taken away.
i stopped dead in my tracks just to admire the purity and love i felt from the creator.
the universe watches over me and im thankful for my guides. the anchors in my life who keep me grounded and remind me to be kind, loving, gracious, and compassionate.
as my morning began, i had a sweet conversation with my mom and enjoyed listening to her. i could hear it in her voice. hearing her healed pain, and the processing she went through, validated my own healing journey and helped me see more clearly.
once we got off the phone i took a moment for myself and reflected on what we shared. as i stepped out to get some fresh air, it happened.
in that moment, i had my breath taken away and it was so quieting. i had to go to Google and make meaning about these gorgeous beauties and what they represented. i found significance especially because i placed a Buddha in my garden of love and there is reverb.
i am feeling the blessings too.
i receive and welcome, with an open heart, the love that has been planted in my life and am ever thankful and most kindly appreciative.
Imeeqis Qeci’yew’yew hinuuywat for this life. as painful as parts of my journey have been, you showed me hope in healing and im grateful for those who did not give up on me.
so when i asked the creator to show me a sign, i was taken back by such beauty. the pretty and lovely feeling the lotus gifted me touched my soul.
when i stepped out to greet the world, it was such a beautiful feeling especially because they were the softest beings to greet me in such a way, that when they took my breath away, i was quieted.
as i journey through life, i knew immediately the lotus represented a healing. after i learned more, i had a realization. the rebirthing of my life, especially with how this last Mercury Rx rocked my world to the core, was to shed light on how deep the lotus grows.
instead of drowning in the deep muddy waters, she moves and meanders her way through. she literally emerges from the mud and blossoms in water. not to drown, but to rise and surface above the water. thereafter, she floats and glides along the way.
the lotus is a precious and beautiful flower. the reverb was not only the death of my ego, but the rebirthing of my spiritual soul.
healing my heart, mind, and soul from all the past 19 years has been so much work it’s incredibly nuts i carried these rocks for so long.
here is what i learned about the lotus flower. it grows in the deep mud, far away from the sun. sooner or later, the lotus reaches the light becoming the most beautiful flower ever.
the lotus flower is regarded in many different cultures, especially in Buddhism, as a symbol of purity, enlightenment, self-regeneration and rebirth. it’s characteristics are a perfect analogy for the human condition: even when its roots are in the dirtiest waters, the lotus produces the most beautiful flower.
according to Buddhism, every person has the potential to become perfect and enlightened, and it is just a matter of time until each human reaches the light. Buddhists believe it’s necessary to be reborn thousands of times, polishing one’s being through many incarnations, until one reaches nirvana – the highest state of consciousness that humans can access.
the Buddha is sometimes depicted sitting on a Lotus flower, symbolizing the one who overcame the pain that prevails in the material world and became enlightened, just like the Lotus flower which starts to grow in the dirty and muddy water but manages to surpass the water and produce a perfect flower. Many Hindu gods are depicted sitting or standing on a Lotus flower for the same reason.
in the most serene spaces, i write from a place of love and healing, and im here for all of it.
Qeci’yew’yew hinuuywat 💕🙏🏽✨